Still Here

3 minute read Published: 2024-11-08

Some updates on where I am and what I've been doing, plus some bonus pics and renders.

Banner image showing a 3D model of abstract spheres that have many extruding features.

There's no real reason I need to explain where I've been, but I feel like doing so will help me get back in the swing of things a little bit, and might give me a thing to look back on in the future. World politics stress is a real thing, and it's something I've found myself caught up in again I guess. It's taken a lot out of me recently, on top of some other personal struggles and burning out on my art. A perfect storm for lack of motivation and energy. I'm working through it and figuring out medication stuff, but in the meantime I need to find a way to keep myself from falling back into the toxic sludge of depression.

Today I put together the cover image render from a few experiments I've been fiddling with the last week. I'll post a full res image later on, but the render time will probably take the entire night.

Here's a handful of other things I've tinkered with since my last update on the site.

A combination wireframe + rendered view of a bird-like helmet that has a large gold visor and a dark olive green metal beak.
A weird bird helmet that came to me as soon as I woke up one day. Some light subd modeling practice as well.

Image of a 3D modeled marble.
Image of a 3D modeled marble.
2 custom marbles I made for Marble Blast PlatinumQuest. Mostly a test to see how the mod tools work.
PlatinumQuest is a really awesome mod for Marble Blast that takes all of the content from all of the games and brings it all into one place. It also throws in a lot of QoL changes, and an entire online community level browser built right into the game.

A robotic bird with white panels and metallic arms and legs.
This is a larger project, one that burnt me out a bit. I did definitely learn a lot of good things from it so far, especially regarding finding a design process that works for me personally.

That's about it for the notable things I've worked on recently. I'm hoping to finish up the bird robot at some point and make a few more marbles for PlatinumQuest, but it's been real hard thanks to my own brain. I hope everyone reading this from the US is staying safe. Try to keep your heads up, I know it's been feeling really hopeless here lately. All LGBTQ+ people are welcome on my site, and feel free to reach out if you're feeling really awful. Surround yourself with people who love you for who you are.